Sunday, March 2, 2008

More thoughts

FRIDAY
I cried yesterday because my belly button has sunk right back in. How stupid right? I sobbed over how it used to stick right out when I laughed.

I regret not taking photos of me and Kim with my belly.

I feel like I'm still waiting for Caden to arrive. The real Caden. Like the one on my computer screen isn’t the real Caden. Because the real Caden wasn’t supposed to even be born yet. The real Caden was supposed to get dressed up in cute little blue clothes. And grow into his volleys and his everlast shoes. The real Caden was supposed to go to Gaelic games with me and be fat and big and cute.

The real Caden isn’t supposed to be tiny and precious and beautiful and dead.

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