Wednesday, August 27, 2008

feels like forever, feels like yesterday

At this time, 6 months ago, I was in labour with Caden.
I was sitting in that hospital bed, talking to Kim, wishing and pretending that what was happening, wasn't happening.

In less than three hours it will mark 6 months since I gave birth to my tiny, dead, son.

I feel like I should be making a big deal of this day. That it is some "milestone".
Maybe if he had been born alive.
But without him, well it's just another day.

9 comments:

G said...

They are all just days after they died. Thinking of you.

Mrs. Mother said...

Today was two weeks for me, and today was even harder than one week. I think sometimes it just hits harder than at others.

CLC said...

Thinking of you.

Aunt Becky said...

*hugs*

Thinking of you all.

scarredbellybutton said...

Thinking of you.

A.M.S. said...

Just wanted to let you know you aren't alone.

Tash said...

Six months is incredibly, unbearably hard. I'm so sorry.

Sissy said...

You and I share February 26 as a most painful anniversary. My daughter, Anna, was stillborn on 2/26/06. I just wanted to comment and say hello to you and let you know (as I'm sure you know) that you're not alone. Take care

Natalie said...

I keep grasping for ways to make special dates feel more special. They seem to go by too normally.

Thinking of you.

 

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