Friday, May 29, 2009

Our Three Boys

Well it has been an awfully long time.
There is, however, a very good reason for my absence.



Little Bear arrived on the 7th March after what felt like a very long, and painful pregnancy. I was fortunate to have a great OB who agreed to induce at 36 weeks and our little man arrived weighing 8lbs 3oz.

He is an absolute joy, but has been occupying most of my time lately! Especially as he has had trouble gaining weight - he has just reached 10lb at 11 weeks old.

But he is a happy baby, smiling and laughing at us (when he feels like it).

I can hear you asking "since when was she pregnant??" lol. Well, to be honest we told so few people that some people IRL didnt even know that I was expecting. We only told family and close friends at 26 weeks, and others after he was born! We just didnt want to talk about it at all, it was all just so hard after losing Caden, we talked about it, about him, non stop while I was pregnant, but if anyone asked me anything I gave a short answer and walked away. Pregnancy was just such a shit time for us, always waiting for the other shoe to drop.

But it is all over now and we have a joyful, tiny bear with us now.

Plus, this space was always for Caden, and Caden alone. It didnt feel right to talk about my pregnancy here. But I have met so many wonderful people through my blog and I wanted to share this with you.

I still think of Caden, but not with the frequency I once did. I still miss him, but have stopped going to the cemetary every week. I have been once since Little Bear was born. I bought him some Easter decorations but never made it out to the cemetary.

LB doesnt take Caden's place, but the hurt has eased a little, I wont lie.
It feels like this is the way it was always supposed to be. Our three boys. Just one of them only had a short time on earth with us, and now he flies with the stars.

20 comments:

Inanna said...

I didn't find your blog until recently, but in those first few weeks after we lost our William, I devoured stories like mine and yours was one of them. Thank you for updating. It's so good to hear that life really does go on. I'd tell you to hold your little bear tight, but I know you will. He's beautiful, just like his brother was.

Aunt Becky said...

I'm so, so glad that Little Bear is here. I've been waiting on bated breath to hear about it since you first got pregnant.

Many, many congrats. He is just lovely. Just like his 2 big brothers.

Henry's Mom said...

I follow your blog and check in on in a while to see how you all are doing. The news I found today brought tears to my eyes. I am overjoyed for you and your family. How wonderful!!

Kristi said...

I'm glad you finally posted about him! :) And I'm even more glad that he is bringing you some much deserved peace.

Hope's Mama said...

wonderful news, congratulations.

c. said...

Wow. WOW. Congratulations. He's beautiful. XO.

Mirna said...

Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!! Congrats! I totally understand! Well Miss Hopeful have a great time with tiny Bear! Wishing you just the very best and of course: may your days be filled with utter joy!
lotsa hugs!!!!!!! :)

tireegal68 said...

so glad that your family feels whole again. Little bear is gorgeous. With his two older brothers and two wonderful moms he looks ready for a great life:)

sacredandscarred said...

How beautiful. I'm so glad for you.

Artblog said...

Many congratulations :) such a great photo!

G$ said...

Wow! Grats, he is beautiful!

Brendan and Brenna's Mom said...

What a suprise! I didn't even know you were pregnant! He is beautiful and I'm so happy for your whole family.

Miss K said...

I was going through my blog roll this morning and found this post, I have been following your blog for a while now (when you first started on LPA)and must say I was so suprised. I'm really happy for you two and that little bear has eased some of that pain for you. You are great mummas. Congratulations :)

Ange said...

Speechless you clever little tricker... hee hee. My god what an absolute cutie and I am just so thrilled for you as of course I did not know you were pregnant either. Well done lovely ladies. x

Anonymous said...

Holy Crap! I checked in today to see if maybe you had updated & WOW! What an update! Congratulations to you & yours!

Keep us updated...@ your convienence of course!

~Christi~

Jack's Mommy said...

Oh yes - not having time to blog - completely understood! ((((HUGS)))) I am so happy for you and your family. Sending you tons of love!

k@lakly said...

Can't think of a better way to start the day!! Thanks you for sharing your wonderful news with us, he's a beaut!!
Congratulations!
xxoo

Lil said...

Congratulations ... I've been reading your blog and had hoped some happiness would come your way! He is absolutely gorgeous. I've always thought things happen for a reason, though that seems awful in this instance. But Bear has a reason for coming into your life at this time and one of them is to help you feel whole again.

Sam said...

So happy for you and your family! Congratulations.

Queen Angela said...

I am so happy for you guys. Thank you for sharing your journey.

 

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